The following are the thoughts that went through my head within the first hour I was awake this morning, getting my three small children ready to go to my mother’s house for the day, and taking them there. It’s been edited only slightly for clarity, to remove names and a few other personal things. Some of these things were spoken aloud, many were not. I took this down to illustrate that most of what makes a mother busy lies beneath the surface:
Baby is awake, she won’t want to be ignored very long
Baby needs fresh diaper and breakfast
(Many details about masks I’m going to make today)
I need to seal that hole in the wall
I better make the bed on this side
Which clothes do I have that aren’t filthy?
I need to fold this clean laundry; I wish I had asked the girls to help me so they are in the habit of folding laundry
I wonder if my mom is going to realize we haven’t bathed the kids in a long time and judge me for it
I need to spend some time on homeschool things today
There are SO many dishes downstairs, I really need to have the girls help with that too, they love playing in the water and it’s a great habit if they can love chores
I need to call the insurance company and get the pediatrician changed
What’s the temperature, can the baby wear a onesie?
She better wear a disposable since my mom will have enough on her plate today
Which outfits will be appropriate? Do any size 12 months fit her in a disposable diaper or should we do 18s?
Why isn’t my phone connecting to the internet, I can’t see what the weather is going to be like today
Oh look, my husband is awake now, we don’t have to be quiet anymore, everyone is awake
Gosh, I don’t know where the koosh balls are, child
The baby just tipped over my side table in her room, I wonder if it’s irresponsible to leave it there?
I’ve gotta make sure these kids have vitamins
Looks like we’re all going there for breakfast since they’re all awake
I need to bring my pump and flanges, and that little bottle of milk for the baby so I can put the fresh milk in it
Maybe I should bring the bottle brush and clean it real good
Speaking of brush, do I have time to do hair? Can I afford the time? Can I afford not to?
This child is not getting ready and I’m going to trip over her and she needs to pack her backpack
She’s STILL not doing it, now I need to raise my voice
Will the baby be okay here while I change?
Where is her lion?
Maybe I’d better pack a teether too.
Did I turn off the sound machine?
I’ll leave this stuff here but I can’t forget to pack it.
I suppose I’ll remember when I come back for the baby
My husband’s asking if they’ve packed clothes, let’s make sure they have undies and socks too
I wish we had planted the garden some, the girls love cherry tomatoes
There are so many weeds out there
Those poor lambs ears are dying, and the roses aren’t looking too good either
I wonder if they would be okay if I had taken better care of them
Do we need more shampoo and conditioner for the kids?
I wonder if we have a backup toothpaste for them in the hall closet, do I have one for me?
Did my husband ever get his deodorant or should I make arrangements for that today while the kids are with my mom?
We need more disposable diapers, what else do we need from Target?
I think we’re fine on paper products since we have unopened ones on the porch, we do need more disinfectant wipes though
I’m going to need to go first thing in the morning some day so I can get some
I need to not get so many things so I can walk through the store without pain and fatigue in my knees and hips
I need to give away some stuff and throw away some stuff, we have so much stuff
I should put the plastic eggs together, I could spend all day just doing that, I could give those away at Easter time
I wonder if the duck scrubby here is clean enough to bathe a child, should we keep it if it isn’t? How do you even wash this thing? Is it worth it?
I can’t let this cup fall in the toilet or I’ll have wasted all the money I spent, you can’t keep it if it falls in
This floor is filthy
Is my husband having them put away one of their two outfits that I asked them to pack?
There are so many dishes downstairs and that stove needs to be scrubbed
I better clean this now so the stain doesn’t set
Thank goodness my hair is at least clean today
Am I drinking enough water to be hydrated and make milk?
Do these kids have everything packed?
I wonder how many masks I can pound out today?
Where shall I pack the baby’s stuff?
Show the child affection, we don’t want her feeling overlooked
Is she ignoring her Daddy? Can she hear him okay?
Does the baby need anything else?
I think everything else is downstairs.
Should I bring the baby down or ask my husband to do it?
Look at these, get them outta the pathway so I don’t step on them
Yeah we should bring some hair stuff, Babcia runs out of hair ties if we keep taking hers
Let’s be careful taking the baby down the stairs
Don’t forget your water
I can’t hear what this child is saying, gotta instruct her in vocal production
Ugh, the floor is gritty
I should have put on socks and I didn’t, I am barefoot
This child is screaming now, why is she screaming?
What do we need to pack for breakfast?
The girls need vitamins, the baby needs milk and her oatmeal, we need to pack milk packets for her bottles, and we need frozen cubes or some other lunch something
She really needs her hair redone before we go, she looks like a tornado
I need to take my vitamins so the baby’s getting all her nutrients
What is the baby crying about now?
Is this really two dozen eggs on the counter or one of these is empty?
I wonder when I should order more
Wait, what happened, child?
I’m going to take these vitamins so I don’t have to pack them
Another child is crying now
I need a lunch box, ice packs to go in a lunchbox…
The lunch box is stuck
I need a better place to keep this lunch box so I can get it down without an avalanche
My husband is asking me something?
Oh, it’s going, slowly and stressfully
If she needs two bottles and she needs about 8 ounces. I need to be able to make that out of these packets, there’s two
I am planning to take you to her house for breakfast, kiddo, is that okay? Now cubes.
Do we have any cubes for the baby?
Yeah, what are the cubes that were in the ice cube tray?
I suppose we could just send them because we know they’re edible, four should be right, we can supplement this with applesauce and Cheerios
Why are you crying right now?
We have applesauce packets in the travel bag
I still need a pair of socks and I need to pack my flanges
Where should I pack these?
I should get some milk, fridge…
I should pack milk and cereal for me
Watch out, baby, don’t get pinched!
I need to open a new box of Mini Wheats, do we have one?
Baby, do you need to be picked up right now?
Hey honey, can you hold the baby? I think she just need some love right now
What kind of bag do I need for this?
I don’t want that one grocery bag
Rotten cat, why did you run down there? I am leaving you in the basement
Did I pack this milk in this bag? I did not.
It needs the ice packs, now flanges, then pump
Maybe I will put the flanges together and stick them in there like this
My stomach is very musical this morning
The kids are all hungry too, I am sure
At least the baby is not crying anymore
Okay, I have everything.
I need to pump, and I have my breakfast, we have milk for the baby, we have cubes for the baby, we have diapers over there for the baby, you both have extra outfits packed, do we have hair ties?
Okay, that’s good
I just need socks and we need to go, and we need to bring the baby’s lion
What am I forgetting?
Okay everyone, do you have socks on?
Let’s get shoes on
I’m getting my socks I’ll be right back
Maybe the baby should have socks
I’m going to get some
I don’t suppose these cloth diapers will be sitting around more than 3 days just because we go to Babcia’s; I think we will be able to wash them before they’re too stinky for words and full of bacteria
Which socks even match with what she has in her bag? I don’t even know
I should put on a shirt, what is my mother even going to think if I show up just in my nursing tank?
I could make my socks match my shirt
I better text mom so she knows what’s going on
Now everyone is waiting for me because I did everything myself they don’t know what else needs to come next
I put on deodorant, didn’t I?
Is my phone charged enough to last for a couple hours?
I forgot to put pants on this baby, I hope she’s not too cold
Why isn’t everyone getting in the car?
I just want to put some socks on you so that your toes stay warm
Would you like your lion?
I forgot your teether, I better get that for you
I better say hi to the neighbor, who knows when I’ll see her again?
I need my wallet so I can drive, my husband has my keys
I shouldn’t be lifting that car seat with my knee injured, but I should not leave the baby here by herself because she might freak out
Hey honey, can you come get the baby?
What am I not thinking of that I should bring?
I don’t think I had anything set aside to give to my mother or return to my mother…
Good, Mom texted back, we are in business
I have milk for the baby’s breakfast, I have something to put the milk in that I pump, Babcia has food for the girls, I have food for me because I’m picky, we have the baby’s lion, she no longer sleeps in a sleep sack, we have teething rings, she has socks on
Those are my keys, thank you so much
I must have the most horrible morning breath right now; Mom is going to know that I didn’t brush my teeth yet
Is there anything I’m forgetting to bring?
I need to get that cello ensemble music because that money has been sitting in our house for months now and I’m sure the other cellists would really like to practice it
That stove still needs cleaning
I wonder what else needs cleaning
The porch needs to be picked up
I would really like to get everything condensed and put away and cleared out on that porch so there’s more room to play
For that matter, the bins in the girls room need to be reorganized a bit
I wonder if I should get us some more wine or not bother at this point
I almost ordered some last night
I’ve got to answer all these questions and make these children feel acknowledged
Did I forget anything that I was borrowing that I need to bring back to Mom?
I have to make sure not to park too close to this fence so my child can get out on that side if she wants
Let me get these bags out of the way so that you can climb out once I get you unbelted
I’ve got your backpack out of…
What help do you need getting out of the car?
Okay, well, why don’t you come out of the car and I will help you get your backpack on?
Hang on, kiddo, I can help you
Here, is that better?
Yes, you can jump down and I can reach your backpack
Hang on, I have to help your sister
How to do this without damaging my knees, I wonder?